Demanding more, demanding me -
We’ve done this dance now
our game lost playground
Petty, careless bruising
The fruits of desire overripe and
Oozing, till you
black and blued me
Or I, you.
We fondled innocence till it fell from trees,
We trampled the garden because
Boredom festers like disease
like dandelion weed
Clawing, relentless through the meadow
Swallowing youth whole.
I love you in that special way -
like freeze framing till words lose meaning,
Staring at the construct
Re-constructing muscle, bone, and pulse
Where brick and mortar faltered
Caving in - changing your mind - again
I avoid my own health because caring scares me.
You avoid others because feeling scares you -
It’s the same blind
And I’m getting to old
for this shit.